Me:
but sex is really really crucial for creating
for me, at least
so - maybe I DO need to go kundalini ??
21:13
She:
What do you mean exactly? K is not really about sex... That is a westerners version of it. But, working with k is so good... It's a higher energy even then sex.
Me:
well - sex for me is a tool for this higher whats ever
not energy - but devotion
She:
Yes but that can change
Me:
I cannot spill my devotion on a MAN, Goddess Forbid
She:
It's nice to have a man
Me:
sure
and limited devotion is ok
She:
When you have a Kundalini Awakening, you realize the man is your companion but you've got another even bigger thing
A channel to God
It's beyond flesh, that's what I'm saying
Me:
yes.
I know
me too
exactly
that is what I feel with my art
when playing music
but when you share this with another human - it is tricky
it's nice to share this through sex as well
but for me - creating and music is an act of devotion
my whole life is actually an act of devotion
but you just cant , I cant, be devoted to a man
I mean - I can, and I have been
but it is useless
because you cannot lose your Self to a man.
(abuse, at least, was/ is a danger for me)
Fuck
My PC still does not recognize the DVD player